Maggie

More on Mom dying, but that wasn't what I wanted to talk about.

I've actually had a pretty good 2020. I have been able to take a break from socializing. My mom died - which is really sad, but also a relief. I know that sounds bad, but there are certain levels of stress from being a caregiver that cause serious strain. I am still angry at her nursing home (Isabella Geriatric - google it) for killing her. And I hope to be one of dozens of people who sue that place. I don't even care about the money, but it is fucking infuriating that I thought that I had finally gotten to the point where I wouldn't have to worry about Mom all the time. Let the trained staff worry about her.

But Isabella Geriatric was short staffed by design. Every time I would mention that to the social worker I would get a "everybody complains about that" dismissal as if the millions of dollars going into the CEO's pocket wasn't a crime. So I would have to buy Mom food every day (she wouldn't eat the shit that they served) and I would have to visit her every day in order to keep her functional and emotionally stable. But it wasn't as bad as when she was in Minnesota. At least she was here.

And the short staffing meant that Isabella Geriatric was too busy with everyone else dying - hiding the bodies and all that - to worry about Mom. And I couldn't visit her. So her last months were spent in delusions, which could have been covid-19 related. They were covid-19 related because she didn't have me to keep her stable so her hallucinations went from sporadic and relatively mild to full blown psychosis.

When they finally gave her hospice care, I could visit but then THEY MOVED HER TWO DOORS DOWN.

They didn't have to move her. Her room was already designated as a covid room, but they moved her in order to make certain that they could figure things out. So that destroyed whatever rational thought she had mustered at that point. When I visited her the first time, she babbled for eight hours straight and when I left she begged me to stay because she was certain that she was floating off the bed. Also there were cats. And she called for her roommate to give her the list, because she believed that she was running an animal shelter (she also asked me if I got the check - and got angry at me not knowing what she was talking about).

So I'm still mad about that. The rest of the week she was utterly out of it. I went there, held her hand, played the Sondheim two hour birthday one. I think she liked it. Who knows. She liked Into the Woods when we saw it when I was in high school (I think - but a lot of my outings with Mom in high school had that Lisa & Homer interaction of me making her go to these cool theater things that I loved and she might have liked).

Anyhow, I need to blog more.

I also have a nothing website timlieder.com where I posted almost nohting. I should use that blog.

Also my patreon.

Without Covid-19, I would still be worrying about Mom. Of course, if Isabella Geriatric did their fucking job instead of patting their underpaid low number staff on the backs for being "heroes" Mom would probably be alive.

Also fuck Cuomo for passing the law to protect nursing homes. This means that lawyers are going to have to prove gross negligence instead of negligence. I'm fully confident that Isabella Geriatric committed gross negligence but it's harder. http://www.patreon.com/timlieder
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Weird

Apparently my Dreamwidth account has not been cross posting to this account. Not that I was updating the dreamwidth account. I haven't updated it until today. Today I updated it because I have work to do but I also have some thoughts about my mom dying. anyhow that's at marlowe1.dreamwidth.org

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Serenity

Mom Died - Iyar 26 also May 20 - some thoughts

Ok. So if we are Facebook friends or if you saw the Gofundme campaign to pay for Mom's cremation, you know that my mom is dead. At this point I only know of one person who still follows my blog so that's why I'm writing all of this here instead of on Facebook (which I am really trying hard not to check - see also not reviewing the news. Fucking hell, why is Trump still alive. Mom would be heartbroken to know that that fucker survived her).

Anyhow I'm being very emotionally raw and honest on the Gofundme (and thanking everyone who did help me to pay for that cremation. With that and the Pandemic Unemployment Assistance, I almost feel middle class these days. Sadly August is going to suck). And here I'm going to be honest in a different way.

I'm relieved.

That doesn't mean that I don't miss Mom. And I've been ugly crying throughout the week. I even made the mistake of writing about the week when I took a bus out to Minnesota and tried to help Mom stay in her apartment and how I left her crying and screaming "I'm sorry. I'm sorry" because I only had 40 hours total before I had to hop on a bus and get back to New York. Also there really was no way Mom was going to stay in that apartment. Add to the fact that Mom kept screaming at me not to throw things out or give things away (even used the excuse of a second cousin's kids might wanting the toys - even though those kids were teenagers by that point. She had just been using it for so long she forgot) and it was just brutal. So yeah, I cried hard with the guilt and shame of that time.

I guess that's one of the things about being human. You can do a favor and one that if you heard about anyone else doing would marvel at their dedication and still feel inadequate and ashamed that you couldn't do more.

But there's relief because Mom has been on a downward trajectory for about ten years. Even before then I would go home on my annual trek to Convergence (and stay with Mom on days when I wasn't at the hotel) and I would think that Mom was looking old and tired. But at a certain point she started falling down. Her stuff got more dangerously hemmed in. Her last set of cats died. She rescued Sugar and Wiggles from outside. Wiggles also had a brother that died. And then Wiggles died of diabetes at age 3. I was actually planning for Wiggles. He was adorable. He was a Hitler cat who just snuggled. As opposed to Sugar who hid.

Sugar now loves me. He's very needy. Only took two straight weeks of me cleaning out Mom's assisted living apartment for him to warm up to me.

But yeah, Mom was falling down. Mom was getting weaker. I would get a call from her landlord saying that she fell in the parking lot. She would say that she didn't need to go to the hospital when she totally needed to go to the hospital. The inspectors would come over to look at the house and call the ambulance because Mom had a UTI (they didn't know it was a UTI. That would be weird). She would spend time in the hospital and get OT/PT. She would come out and she would be better.

One time I was called by her doctor's office because Mom left a scattered message on the phone (which is actually normal) and then get told that she had vascular dementia. Later, I would talk about how a study was confusing correlation with causation (the cynicism causes Alzheimer's one that people were sharing) and a friend, Ira, tried to argue that it's not necessarily wrong and mention vascular dementia and I got much more hostile at him than I should have. He blocked me on Facebook. Although now that I think of it, he was always kind of a pompous jackass so if he hadn't hit a trigger then I don't think I would have been friends with him over the long haul.

So this was all cumulative. She got moved into Assisted Living. She hated how they were treating her. A few years later they sent her to the hospital with a UTI. Then she would come back. She would be ok for a few months and then get sent back to the hospital. Then she would go to Cerenity for more OT/PT. At one point, they ended up putting her in the hospital with an impacted bowel because they were giving her Iron and not noticing that she wasn't having bowel movements (which she always referred to as having a BM which always sounded like those "I could have had a V8" commercials. And V8 was a disgusting drink). That was a fun evening. Especially since the doctor messed up the charts and I got a call about a woman who was being monitored because there was a heart murmur. Mom didn't have a heart problem that evening. They just gave her an enema and sent her back to Cerentiy. But it took about an hour to figure that out.

I still wonder about the woman with the heart problem whose family learned that she had an enema. I bet they were surprised by that treatment.

Anyhow the last time she went to Cerenity, they did the same thing of putting her in the good room for a couple weeks and then transferring her to the slow floor. Even then the social worker was floating the idea of sending her back to an assisted living place. Weirdly enough no one suggested that I bring her to New York. I had to do that myself.

So anyhow, I have a lot of friends who helped me out to move her to New York. And I have a lot of friends who helped me out with the cremation costs. It's nice to have friends. I'm a bit cynical and abrasive and when Carlbach starts playing I get downright surly. That's nice.

But mostly I have been worried about Mom for so long, it's really nice to just be able to mourn her. She was a good mom. A bit difficult but what Mom isn't.

I also almost replied to a friend on Facebook talking about his mom dying three years ago with "Hey! My mom just died! We can be dead mom buddies!" but I didn't.

I'm also getting really sick of the concern. I know I do it too. But grief is weird. I'm either ok or crying and neither one seems to justify the "are you ok? tell me if there's anything you need" chatter. In the former case, I feel like I'm in the wrong mood and in the latter case, I don't want the witness.

Also trying not to tell my clients that my mom died, but some are so needy that I thought it would put them off for a couple days. It didn't.

So yeah. That's where I'm holding. Shiva lasts until Tuesday. I'm actually bending the rules as I am having Mom cremated instead of buried so technically I should have paid $1500 more to bury her on Wednesday night, but I am going from death.

It's also strange how easy it was not to bathe from Wednesday until Friday evening. Like ridiculously easy. Even wore the same shirt. But after Shabbos I was not going to put that stinky thing on. I have another shirt which I ripped for mourning. It's the tie-dyed shirt that I was wearing when I was helping Mom throw out her stuff. So that fits. I don't know if I'm going to wear it until this is over. I may bathe. The first days are intense but Shabbos did interrupt it.

And apparently Shloshim ends with Shavuot. Good to know. http://www.patreon.com/timlieder
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Books Read in 2019 # 112 - African Science Fiction & More Spirit

112. Who Fears Death by Nnedi Okarofer - This may be my favorite book I've read by Okarofer. It has much more gravitas than the other books I've read which are more light and funny. This book is a heroine's journey that is merciless in the way that it doesn't flinch away from the Sudan genocide. The book even ends in Dufrar (Darfur) with the heroine seeking to change the Great Book. Apparently the prequel explains that there was an apocalyptic event having to do with colonialism and human experimentation but in this book, the apocalypse is far in the past with rooms of computers to suggest that there was a great deal more technology in the world. Okorafer doesn't explain the past so much as hint at it in order to leave the door open for new books in the same universe. Either way, it read quickly and I enjoyed it (yeah, it's December and I'm not terribly interested in writing professional sounding book reviews at this point).

113.Will Eisner's The Spirit by Darwyn Cooke - This was DC's attempt to revive the Spirit and give the character a new or a retread origin story. Familiar characters from the Spirit show up in the book and get their own new origins. There's the Octopus who only shows up as a pair of gloves (Alan Moore would write a fun twisted Octopus origin story) and there are the femme fatales who are fun. Also love that the Cossack is a villain. I didn't read any Eisner books with the Cossack as the villain but Eisner was Jewish and sorry Cossacks, but Jews are writing the books these days and you guys suck. Maybe your ancestors shouldn't have been so enthusiastic about raping and killing our ancestors.

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Maggie

Books read in 2019 # 110-111 - Will Eisner

110. Will Eisner: The Centennial Celebration, based on the exhibitions of Le Mussee De La Dessinee and the Society of Illustrators - This is a coffee table book and as most coffee table books, this is a book where you can find all the greatest hits but also certain discoveries like the attempts in the 1970s to update the Spirit and make him more adult for the Kitchen Sink Press material. There's not enough material on Eisner's graphic novels but the panels from Contract With God are still beautiful. This goes up to the final work that Eisner did which was for the tie-in to Kavelier and Clay. Eisner quite liked the book and obviously the book liked Eisner since Chabon referred to the era when one of the artists was telling the stories of the hero from different perspectives and playing with the narrative (one of the reasons why Spirit is still fun to read when many of the Golden Age comics are boring). So this is a beautiful book yada yada. Nothing much else to say.

111. The Lost Works of Will Eisner - for completists only. It's great that these comics were found but beyond the historical curiosity of reading the newspaper strips that Eisner did before The Spirit, there's nothing to recommend them. They are just the foibles of a fat guy who rarely speaks and runs into problems like getting his pants stolen at a restaurant that tells patrons to watch their hats and coats. That's it. That's the joke.

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Books read in 2019 # 107 - Pizza Horror (aka Hey, I'm in this one)

107.Tales from the Crust: An Anthology of Pizza Horror by David James Keaton and Max Booth III - Getting published in respected anthologies is fun. I can spend weeks looking up reviews of the book in order to see if my name is mentioned and even better, I want to read the anthology. When I sell my stories to anthologies where the editors can only put up $5 or $20 per story, I tend to read a couple of stories and then put the thing in the pile of books to hang out on my shelves or get donated somewhere. It's not often that I get published in a respected market. The last one that I got into was Steve Berman's Daughters of Frankenstein anthology from a couple years back.

On the other hand, I can't rightfully review a book where I'm in - at least not at the most brutal honest way. Mostly because I don't necessarily want to see a fellow author writing a review of the same book and saying how much my story sucks. There's no story that I didn't like in this one but I have my favorites. So in the interest of full disclosure, my bias may interfere.

Ok, there's one story that I hated but I think I can name it and review it in a way that will still inspire others to read it. "The Upper Crust" is just disgusting. It's got a point which is that to get to the top of society, there are stupid rituals that no one should have to go through and that makes sense, but after a few pages I found it too much of a gross out story for my liking. So if you are a fan of Human Centipede, this could be your favorite story. I didn't like it, but it's certainly audacious.

Now for the rest. Cody Goodfellow's "The Vegan Wendigo" earns its place at the beginning of the book with a story about how you really shouldn't trust a vegan pizza shop with a waiter with a wooden leg, especially when the fake meat doesn't taste so fake. Sheri White's "Mickey and the Pizza Girls" takes place in a town that has experienced a body horror merging of bodies, with dead babies hanging off of breasts and two girls stuck together at the head, in a way that has driven them insane. It's a profoundly disturbing stories in a great way of discomfort. Nathan Rabin's "The Violent and Ugly Death of the Noid" is from his Web site so jokes about the Snyder Cut are expected but not distracting.

I think my favorite was "The Parlor" by Evan Dickon, but that says more about my love of mobster stories with ambivalent family relations than anything. I was also a sucker for Thomas Picirrelli mobster family books and Holly Black's White Cat series is still my favorite. Two brothers grow up in a family pizza shop with a relationship to monsters from another dimension. At a certain point, one brother starts using those monsters to his advantage and takes over the shop with the other brother left to narrate it. It haunted me.

Ok, so about my story - I read it a bunch of times and I rather love it but it's definitely an example of my day job bleeding into my fiction writing. I write term papers for money and so I've been sucked into this academic world a little too much, even when I'm just writing the term papers that are supposed to be rough drafts so the students don't get busted.

Also, it owes a great deal to the back chapters in Watchmen where Alan Moore writes from the perspective of former heroes writing their autobiographies, liberal reporters interviewing Ozymandias and an academic discussion of the guy who wrote the Black Sails comic and helped design the squid (for a minor character that artist sure does get a lot of influence).

So I wrote this one as an academic essay based on the characters. I guess it's also part of the writer fantasy of what they are going to say about you after you become famous. "Introduction to Let's Kill the Pizza Guy: The Love Poetry of Yael Friedman in regards to Hadassah Herz" is the title and two parallel stories take place with Yael and Hadassah getting together and killing pizza guys in one part but also the academics fighting over these poems to the point of blowing each other up in their apartments being another.

Oh. I should also mention that this is part of a series of stories that I'm writing about the 12 Brothers at the end of Genesis. I am still trying to sell the first one "Song of Winter" about the boyfriend of the PR guy of the Esav character (I got a bit obvious and named that character Esther Vav) but from that I wrote more stories and I keep trying to make them different. Anyhow, most of these stories are about the massacre of Shechem instead of the kidnapping and sale of Joseph. Instead of Shechem, I made it Dayton, Ohio.

In this story, Hadassah Herz is a big fan of Simon Vav - based on Shimon in Genesis - known primarily for killing off everyone in Shechem with Levi. Levi is an interesting case of a religious fanatic who can do great things or awful things depending on his influence. When Levi is around Judah, he's the spiritual leader. When he's around Shimon, he's brutal and evil. The symbolic nature of the characters renders Shimon's descendants almost gone with Levi as the spiritual leaders (Moses and Aaron, with the priesthood coming from Aaron).

That's neither here nor there, just something that I hope people care about as I sell more of these stories. If I sell more of them.

Anyhow, this is a cool anthology. You should definitely buy it.

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Maggie

Books read in 2019 # 106, 108-109 - Tragic & Unfair

106. Stitches by David Small - This is book about a boy whose parents are messed up and they put their neuroses upon their son which is even more fucked up than your usual coming of age in the repressed 1950s books because he gets cancer and they don't even bother to tell him until years after he got his vocal chord removed. I actually want to figure out how he managed to learn how to talk with one vocal chord. Did he get another operation? Anyhow, the father thinks that all the radiation that he got as a kid was the culprit. The mother is just unhappy and silent. But also gay which works as a mitigating factor to how awful she is portrayed throughout most of it. Most of these books about the repressed families of the 1950s tend to lead to the counterculture of the 1960s. Seems like most artists of baby boomer age had these experiences where their family never talked so they formed these pot smoking sex cult communities where they could at least express themselves. And then go back and talk about how their parents were really sad.

108.Buddha: Volume 1 Kapilavastu by Osamu Tezuka - This one was reminding me of the medieval Jesus plays (not the Passion Plays which were all about the crucifixion - Mystery Plays?) where everything is a rough social and family comedy until the last scene where suddenly everyone wants to tell you about Jesus. Medieval Literature is very strange because it doesn't conform to any of the rules that we expect because many of these rules had not been written yet. Anyhow, the main point of this book is that Buddha gets born, but it's mostly about a slave boy who gets adopted by a warlord and how he learns how to be a warrior but also a human being. But he never forgets his mother and this causes complications in the last act where the hero who can take possession of multiple animals vows revenge. Also Buddha is being born with everyone going "hey, this guy is going to be awesome!!!"

109.Like One of the Family by Alice Childress - This is a fun one but also it's about the perspective of housekeepers in New York in the 1950s telling stories about their employers, their families and life in New York. This was Childress' way of talking about social issues including racism in the South, the North's smug way of acting superior and the need of domestic workers for a union. The title comes from one of the first stories (these stories are about 2-5 pages long) where the boss says that she's like one of the family and she points out that family members are not expected to iron everything. One of the last ones is about Harriet Tubman where the narrator is telling a Sunday School class about Tubman and fighting against their general ignorance (from textbooks) of the woman and their doubts that she ever existed. History is a battlefield indeed.

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Books read in 2019 # 104-105 - comic books and a sense of overtime

104. Adventure Time vol 2 by Ryan North et al - I think I am bored with Adventure Time. I like this comic well enough. Time travel. Future dystopia. Lots of shenanigans with Princess Bubblegum (written around the time Finn and PB were a potential couple). But I think that the shine is off and I can't really get excited for these tricks anymore. Last year when Adventure Time was playing its last episode, I got excited. I remember liking the show. I remember not seeing it in a long time. I put everything on hold. Then I learned that Adventure Time had hit a rough patch in its last few seasons with many recycled tropes and retcons just gumming everything up. The stories were still interesting and entertaining but I was losing my affection for the tragic story of Ice King which was all I was paying attention to. So yeah, Adventure Time. It was fun but it went on too long.

105.The Walking Dead vol 31: The Rotten Core by Robert Kirkman et al. - The show is boring now. I tried watching the season after the end of the Saviors War and I can't even get through it. The comic is finished so these are the last few stories and they only prove that the whole thing went out with a whimper. So now everything is coming back together. The extended Dark Age that most zombie apocalypse shows posit is coming to an end with the city state run by snobs who force people to do whatever job they were doing before the Apocalypse. I wonder at the infrastructure that could justify that kind of caste system so easily in light of a zombie apocalypse. So this new safe space isn't safe and Rick is getting suspicious. The comic ends with Duane getting killed by the political establishment and Rick deciding that he's going to have to take over.

I almost want to admire a comic that has been repeating the same story but in a way where the stakes continually increase. Rick and friends come to a place. They think it's safe. For various reasons it turns out not to be safe. They have a big war. People die and then there's a semblance of order. The scale increases from a prison to a cult to a suburb to a loose confederation to a would-be feudal lord and now we got an actual modern city. There's also the whisperers who seemed like a threat until Negan did his last great moment.

But yeah, the whole book - it's really Negan's book. Negan is great. Without Negan it's boring.

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Books read in 2019 # 97-103 I have been reading a lot over the chagim

97.A Different City by Tanith Lee - I was going to entitle this entry "heartless bastards" because the first two entries were this book and a Hellraiser book where the authors are leaning heavily on the whole "John Constantine screws over everyone" but the issue with talking about Tanith Lee protagonists as heartless bastards is that most of her heroes are sociopaths who view the world with a cool and lethal detachment. That's kind of her thing. This one ranges in quality from brilliant to well ok I suppose. The first story "Not Stopping at Heaven" is an adaptation of a script her father wrote in the 1970s and it's very much the kind of story you would see on Night Gallery, with the dumb trusting wife, her evil manipulative husband and the shrew of a mistress. Like all of these stories, the dumb trusting wife manages to turn it around and take revenge in a supernatural manner. Idoll is the worst of the bunch mostly because there's really no redemption for anyone in this story, just a poor girl whose extended family steals her inheritance and her only escape is to merge with a statue. I would consign this book to the trash that I place Lee's Blood Opera series if it weren't for the last story "The Portrait in Gray" which is a twist on the Oscar Wilde classic. Only in this one, the portrait painter uses her art as a revenge and paints the subject with all of the flaws that the Dorian Gray picture takes on toward the end. It's a rather adorable piece about a patient vengeance through paint.

98. The Bellblazer: The Inspiration Game by Tim Seeley, Richard Kadrey and others - Kind of sick of the whole "John Constantine is a bastard" story. In the early days of the character he was a manipulative bastard with a heart who genuinely was trying to save the world and haunted by his dead friends. Jamie Delano brought in his ghosts almost every issue. But now we get John Constantine being an asshole and proudly being an asshole as if he was made for the 4chan crowd. The first story is all about John hooking up with an old cop girlfriend and how she is bitter towards him because I don't know. Demons. Anyhow, there's an alternate reality version of her but mostly it's the demons and then the clincher is that after he wins and they have a reunion, he goes "you were always so sweet to me and believed in everything. So fuck off." The San Francisco one with the Buddhist type destroying New Age con artists is fine but it also ends with Constantine going "fuck off". So yeah, John Constantine is the DC character that tells people to fuck off.

99. Secret Wars by Jonathan Hickman & Esad Ribic - There's a Iron Man story where Dr Doom keeps showing up wanting to help out and I didn't know why that was a thing but then I found that this was the ending of this trick. Basically, it has the same function of Crisis on the Infinite Earths (housekeeping, getting rid of the alternate universes) with the Secret Wars conceit from that original series (Battle World where everyone is supposed to fight - leading to Dr Doom taking over with the Beyonder's powers). It's actually quite fun and it doesn't make it too obvious that the main point is to get rid of the Ultimate titles but keep Miles Morales. One wonders if this thing would have been done in the 90s had any of the New Universe titles been halfway interesting. The Thor brigade is great and there are some cool ideas. Ultimately, it's mostly a fight between Reed Richards and Dr Doom with a lot of yada yada magic talk to explain anything.

100. Black Panther: Long Live the King by Nnedi Okorafor & various artists - This is a pretty good one, mostly it's about T'Challa trying to figure out how to balance the monarchy with tribalism. Okorafor notes that she's Igbo and therefore pretty non-impressed with royalty. There's also one in Nigeria of course. As much as I liked this one (and certainly liked it better than whatever Coates was trying to do), I don't really get much of an impression at all.

101. Wonder Woman Rebirth by Greg Rucka and Nicola Scott - The new origin of Wonder Woman feels a great deal like the movie origin. Diana really feels like she has to leave Paradise Island. There are followers of Mars walking around. Eventually she meets Ares/Mars and that's about it. I read it and I feel like I want to watch the movie again.

102. Captain Marvel: Earth's Mightiest Hero by Kelly Sue Deconnick - I think I read this one before. I really think I read this one before. The first story is a space adventure but the next two stories have certain elements that were either in this book or before. I think I read the one with her old friend dying (complete with a long flashback to Carole helping her old friend grieve) in a different book but then I read the Secret Wars one (where Carol Danvers figures out that Doom is not really God and something is weird on Battle World) in this one or a different one. I don't know.

103. Dissolving Classroom by Junji Ito - this certainly isn't the most innovative Junji Ito story and it's not even the funniest one, but it certainly is funny, especially with the combination of Yuuma always apologizing (which makes people melt) and his sister Chizumi - who really wants to eat those people when they melt makes a comic duo. The major variation is the one where Yuuma can also melt faces by telling girls that they are beautiful and the more he says it the more deformed they become. It also fits in the pocket.

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Books read in 2019 # 94-96 - Comic Books!!!!

94. Criminal: The Sinners by Ed Brubaker & Sean Phillips - Guest starring Joe Hill. That was the part that made me laugh. The one character mentions a corrupt cop named Joe Hill and in the next panel there he is - with the black beard and the features that pretty much outed him as Stephen King's son well before he admitted to it. And then he gets killed because this is what thriller writers like to do to each other. Also there's a lot of noir about the main character trying to find people who are killing mobsters. Fortunately most of the mobsters are pretty understanding and they don't go to war. Also it's a bunch of kids being induced to do it by a priest. In the end, the main character becomes a superhero - able to walk away from jumping out of a window and then in such great shape after taking care of all the mobsters that he's ready to go back to the military where he's AWOL. Because they would totally want someone who should be crippled from that jump out a window.

95.The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl: Life is too short, Squirrel by Ryan North et al - So this one is about a Skrull on the run who is terrible at hiding and faking identities. This is the reveal halfway through after she steals the identity of Squirrel Girl (with a faked death) and then Tony Stark in a ridiculous manner. Anyhow, she's a cool character but the Skrulls are apparently villains in this one - more like the Kree in the movies. So she needs to hide and then the earth becomes a Skrull defector refugee center with Stark faking their deaths.

96. Dead Man (miniseries) by Neal Adams - meh. Seriously meh. There's a cute rat at the end which is a cliffhanger, but yeah mostly this is a big conspiracy revealing story where the Dead Man finds out that his brother is in the League of Assassins, but so is his father and mother. There are also Yetis. Somehow people want him to go to Nanda Prabat but then that doesn't really work either.

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